Its been a while

Its been a while since I wrote something I'm thankful for, my bad.

I know I write about my job a lot. This is specifically dedicated to my coworkers..deal with it.

I work with an AMAZING group of people. Our job is stressful, mentally exhausting, and just down right difficult at times. But everyone who works for my company is awesome at what they do. If someone is in a tight spot with a student anyone in that building is ready to jump in and help. Morale has been difficult at times but I know any coworker has my back.  Though many might take it for granted I know each teacher has a huge heart.  If they didn't they wouldn't be doing what we do, trust me.

Sometimes people come in and out if your life for different reasons.

I'm making some tough decisions as of lately. Lets hope I make the right ones.

My mother

Being as it is my mothers birthday...

My mom and I (well my family and I) have had some major issues. A rollercoaster ride is an understated description. In these recent years though I find myself missing and really feeling the distance between my family and I. It makes me really appreciate the 2 weeks a year I get to see them.

Sidenote: My father hasn't lived in the same state as me since 2006 and the rest of my immediate family followed him in 2010. So, when I say distance I literally mean distance.

I'm not very close with my mom. We just don't communicate well. It used to upset me but as I got older I realized sometimes people just don't communicate well--we still love each other just the same. That's not to trivialize the fact that I respect the hell out of that woman. When I was in middle school my mom started going to college. She was also working full time as a wedding planner (my mom is fantastic at what she does!). She was ALSO a military wife; I have a respect for any military wife because I know firsthand how stressful and time consuming that can be. I remember many days waking up to my mother studying in the kitchen, coming home to her working out the details of so and so's wedding, and then planning some event for my dad and his squadron. Seriously, my mom is wonder woman. I hope I'm half of the wife and mother she is.</div>

My job

I never thought I would ever find something that I love quite as much as my line of work.

I was working at Walmart. Produce section. I cannot accurately describe how dull and monotonous that job was. When a friend of mine pulled me out from the powers that be at Walmart and introduced me to what gets me out of bed each morning.

The world of Autism and other developmental disorders.

This population of people is so remarkable. I have learned more from my existence in this world than I have ever before. I have worked with kids as little as 5 years old; all the way to adults that are 40--each person had taught me how to love and appreciate all that I have around me.

I love going to my job and watching the progression of awareness and skill set develop. Witnessing a non preferred behavior being replaced with a more appropriate response. Even when I'm not responsible for this progress its awesome to see a child look someone in the eye and just say hi. How the word, hi, and eye contact though simple and second nature to some are a milestone in this line of work. Nothing makes you appreciate the little things more than that.

Being Appreciative Take 2

I forgot to write in this on 20th and seeing how I only have 20 minutes before the day is up, I might not make it. However, my oldest and dearest friend politely reminded me that once I commit to an idea I should stick with it. So, I might have two installments in one day. And with that being said: I am appreciative of my friendship with Jonathan Negless :-)

I have known Jonathan for...going on 12 years I believe. He was the older high school boy and I was the annoying middle school girl. As time has progressed he's no longer in high school but I still play the part of annoying. Everyone plays a role in life, right?

Jonathan and I have been those friends that talk daily, to friends that only talk every once in a while. Despite our talking schedules I do know that no matter what he'd be there to listen if I really needed him. I don't know how many times I've 3am drunk dailed him...though as time has passed he doesn't always answer-with no fail I wake up to a text asking me what I needed. That's the kind of friend; actually, that's what kind of person Jonathan is, loyal.

He's there with advice and willing to help. Though I have not always received it well I know its honest and comes from a place of love and kind intentions.

All in all, though I'm not quite sure he knows it; he's always been the person in my life that I respect the most. He's not perfect but he's never unwilling to admit his mistakes and always tries his best to remedy them. He's the friend that every annoying middle school age girl needs to keep in her life for when she turns into an annoying 25 year old girl with career choices and ever lasting relationship issues. I love him and our friendship more as the years pass. He's going to be in my life for the long haul and I am most appreciative for that.

Being appreciative-My roommates

I have always believed and said that being happy is appreciating what you have. I'm gonna challenge myself to write at least once a day about what is good in my life.

My roommates rule. I know its only been 6 months but I never thought that I could find 3 people I love living with so much. Well Marc hasn't been here but we lived together before this house so I'm lumping him in.

Ryan-I love his carefree attitude. It really seems like he just doesn't let shit get to him. And he always smiles..I can come home from a really stressful day at work and his smile is just contagious. And its hilarious the way he says ding dong and dummy

Marc-Marc has his life together. He's pretty level headed as far as adult stuff goes...can't help but respect that. He's also probably one of the most caring individuals you will ever meet. Its hard to notice about him at first. But once you actually develop a friendship with the guy you know he'd do anything to help you out.

Sam-I can't even describe or remotely want to think about where my life would be without this girl. She's the kind of friend that everyone needs. Honest, compassionate, and she could make a potato sack fun. She can even bring spontaneity into your life as long as its after 3 pm on Mondays and never on the third Tuesday of the month. Joking aside, this girl is a reeaaalllyy good one. Keeper for sure.

Picking my battles

It feels good when the people calling the shots have your back. It instills some new found confidence.

I started a new duty at work. Its super new for me. Way out of my comfort zone but I'm super excited. The more and more experience I receive and challenges I face the more I realize this is where I belong. Despite whatever its happening good or bad in my life; working in the behavior field is where I am meant to be. It gets me out of bed, it influences my decisions, it keeps me straight and I love it.

Why is it that people are so rude? I have a very stressful job and my own shit like every other person; but, I still manage to smile when I talk to people.

I'm gonna try this

We'll see how this goes